A Note to Self.

Assalamualaikum, me.

hi there.
i know this may look crazy but i'm actually writing this as your (my) reminder, and as a support.

things may have been hard for you, yeah i know that. i know everything about you, what you have been through, what you feel and even what you are thinking. because i am actually writing this to you, who is actually me.



there are times when you might feel invaluable, and of no use for anyone. remember: they might feel that way and treat you that way, but there are people who still need you in their life.

there are times when you felt unloved and alone. remember: there are still other people who love you for who you are. these people may not leave you no matter what happens. you are not alone, if you need the just call to them, they might still be around for you.

there are times when you feel helpless, and no one's there to help. remember: this is a test and this is a way to train your heart to be stronger than before; a test of independence. one day you will face this loneliness again, only this time you will be strong enough to not depend on others.

whatever it is, DO NOT EVER GIVE UP. you are strong, you know that. don't lose to the Shaytaans, don't lose to the Djinn named Qarin. if you want to change, improve, and get near to Allah SWT, do it. don't  ever give up. please don't. it's Jihad. fight for yourself, try to strengthen the 5 pillars of Islam, the 5 prayer times. don't leave it. don't ignore it. it may be hard but "in a game, to get to the final boss there will be stronger and stronger opponents, obstacles will be harder. but after you clear up all of that, there will be a reward. the most valuable reward that only a certain few can obtain it," be that certain few. don't lose in the game. patience, Istiqomah, Tawadu', Tawakkal, Taqwa, & Du'a are your greatest weapons ever. be very well-equipped and you're good to go.

beware of Riya' and Takabbur. these are two of the most hardest obstacles ever. Istighfar, and Insya-Allah, these will never bug you anymore.

turn to Allah SWT. if you feel like you don't have anyone left, Allah is always with you. talk to Him, ask anything from Him. forgiveness, achievement in life & afterlife, blessings, reminders, Rizq, health, anything. Insya-Allah, He will grant it. if not, it's a way to show you that He will not give you what you asked for but He will give you something better inn return.

anything that has happened have Hikmah. remember that. even if you're having a bad day or a bad year, think about what it has brought you into.

but, don't just remember Him during miseries, show some gratitude. appreciation. say Alhamdulillaah. don't forget about Him. be near to Him and He will be near to you.

that's all.

remember this advice always. don't ever forget. once you forget, you will turn back into your miserable self.
Assalamualaikum, me.